Change of Plans

Posted on | January 14, 2008 |

Thanks to those of you who hoped I had a good treatment today. However, my cold has not subsided. I thought I was on the mend on Saturday, but it turns out that I’m actually in the thick of it. We’ve had to push back my treatment until I am better. When you’re on immunosuppressive therapy like I am, you don’t take additional immunosuppressants when you’re fighting any sort of infection - even the common cold virus - because it could turn into something more serious. We’ll try to reschedule in a couple of days, hoping that the worst is over.

The unfortunate result of this, however, is that I’ve started to get my vertigo and hearing symptoms back. Usually, I’m good until a few days before the treatment. And the same occurred this time; last night my old nemesis, vertigo, hit hard. And today, my hearing is off. Some, I know from the stuffiness in my sinuses, but the tinnitus that is usually slight is really loud at this time. I think that it’s really proving to me how much these treatments have suppressed my symptoms and reversed some of the effects of the disease. I haven’t had this much symptomatic activity in a long while.

So, I sit here in the den with tissues, juice, tea and coffee in-between my cold-symptom relief medications, hoping to have enough energy to get back to painting. It’s so hard to have paintings in process, but no energy to work on them. I do have my journal next to me and I’m doodling in it to create some pages for journaling later, since that appears to be all i have the energy to do in small doses. But it’s not nearly as exciting and satisfying as painting or even being in the studio. I just don’t have the energy to sit at the desk in the studio today.

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